UGH. MARRY ME.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about my family alot. After mamachoi got a surgery, I see how dysfunctional my family is without mom. On sunday, my aunt called us ahead before visiting us. After I hung up the phone, I realized how dirty our house is and how there is nothing to eat. I don’t remember cleaning and looking into the fridge just because someone is visiting us. This is when my family started to be on my mind. During work yesterday, I was thinking of making a chart or doing something with papachoi and sistachoi. However, when I got home around 9pm, I even forgot to check up on mom and went straight to my room. I was sick, but that’s just an excuse. When I woke up this morning, I made breakfast for my family and left without saying bye because everyone was sleeping. I have to go to visit my grandma after work today. So, I’ll probably get home late again. Sigh.. here is the thing. I know that I should do something more to catch up with my family and I think about it. But, I end up not doing anything because I’m physically tired.
Hopefully, I don’t forget to check up on my family when I get home today.
My workout is usually swimming and insanity.. so I can’t really listen to anything but water and Shaun T.. And I don’t listen to anything when I clean.. HEEHEE.
Knowing me, I feel like I’m going to act like I like that person and probably don’t express my true feelings. Everything comes out the wrong way when I’m angry at the person. So, I guess I’ll wait until I don’t dislike the person. I might not even talk to the person about how I feel if I continue to not like the person. But, I don’t think I dislike anyone right now. So.. no worries! HEEHEE!
My role model is my grandmother.
She is someone that I admire and respect the most. It was her 80th birthday this april. Even though our age gap is huge, she always tries understand me with love. She doesn’t just yell at me for something that I did wrong but instead talks to me and tries to understand where I’m coming from. The reason why I wanted to be a pharmacist before I chose to major in architecture was because of her. Even though my grandfather passed away twelve years ago, she kept going to achieve their dreams to keep their pharmaceutical company. And she did it. Her passion to study and practice even her at age inspired me to study pharmacy. Well.. not anymore. HEEHEE. Anyways, she is wise and humble. She loves God and cares about other people. She is getting a surgery today for her left knee so I went to the hospital to visit her yesterday. She was with two other grandmas who were getting the same type of surgery. They were 60 and 70 years old. Seeing how young she looks and how mentally young she is amazed me. When I told her that she is so young for her age she said, “It’s not because of what I did but because God loves me and blessed me.” 할머니! 수술 잘 하시고요. 건강하세요. 그리고, 사랑해요! 수술하는데 시간 오래걸리고 힘드시겠지만, 힘내세요. 하나님께서 항상 함께하시다는 것을 잊지마세요. 화이팅!
Hmm. What would I like to accomplish this year? Let me think. Hmm. I have so many things that I want to accomplish everyday.. all the time. I’m just going to list first five things that comes to my mind.
- Make my own website
- Learn how to play tennis
One of my summer bucketlist: watch as many disney movie as possible
If I switch places with someone for one day, i guess it would be someone that I really love but cannot fully love. There are so many miscommunications between us. And I really need to be more understandable about her. Why? Because I spent most of my life with her. And I know I’m going to be stuck with her until I die. And I guess I love her. As much as I’m bitter at her, I love her. I’ve been trying to understand her more lately, but it is still hard for me to think in her shoes. I want to see her perspective of the world. I want to feel how she feels. I want to go through her daily routine. I want to hear what she hears. I just want to be her for one day. Maybe, it can heal my deep wound from her.
But, I know it won’t happen.
Time for me to ask him for healing.
3. A video that makes you laugh out loud
OMG. I CRIED AFTER WATCHING THIS VIDEO. I like today’s challenge because it’s fun and simple. It made me laugh again for good 10 minutes. HEEHEE.